after work anger dance
Performance description: I wake up four days out of the week at four in the morning, out the door by five-forty-five, and get home by about eight in the evening. I used to go out dancing once a week but since the day job, I don't have the time or the energy. For the past eight years, my body has been growing things called fibroids, that some people on the internet believe is the embodiment of unexpressed anger. After the Kavanaugh hearing I looked inward to try and figure out a way to make something out of my sadness, hopelessness and deep frustration. Dancing in earnest after work and putting it online seems equally as dumb as the world feels right now, and as dumb as it is, it's the sort of thing I like to do. Making it an art project makes it something I force myself into, and maybe I need to force myself to dance again. I'm trying to express my anger but in order to pay bills and take care of my life, I am "too busy" to properly sort that out so I'm going back to the act of dancing, which used to feel like a great release and maybe it was. I'm only here for one song per day. I'm not able to do it everyday but want to keep at it for a while. Am I helping anyone by sharing this? I don't know.